“The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw.” -Havelock Ellis (1859-1939)

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porque solo se que mi futuro es contigo

"If I could be any part of you, I’d be your tears- To be conceived in your heart, born in your eyes, live on your cheeks, and die on your lips"

picture source Oleygyan's and ContributorMagazine's

I am thankful for...

My Cupcake- Anabella.

My beautiful mother.

My sisters.

My aunt Maira.

My family.

The Mister ♥

My friends.

My godkids (Rafael, Derek, Ahmani)

My health.

My body.

My life and everyone and everything in it.

Thank you God,

And if I forget to say it enough, and if I haven't been grateful enough, forgiving, caring, and just kind enough can you still forgive me?

"I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions"-A.B.

A River flows in you

I was a dancer since I was 4years-old until my teen years.  My teacher was always taking me in front of the class as an example for the rest of the students. I was pretty flexitable and I was always told I had the right body and specially the "right legs." The last years of dancing, I felt too much pressure on me- As if I was just always expected to be the best. I got sick once and was absent for a whole week. When I got back the teacher actually placed me in front for a dance routine everyone had learned already for the past week. As she was teaching me, I told her I would prefer to be in the back of the stage this time. But she still placed me in the front, while so many of the other dancers stood behind me. I think that was when I felt this was not for me. I felt that if I had the heart, i wouldve wanted to stay in the front no matter what. My teacher had more faith in me, than I had in myself. I noticed it was always her, and everyone else that wanted me to be a dancer more than I wanted myself. I may have had the right legs, but I just didn't have the heart. I loved it, don't get me wrong. I loved the thrill of being up in stage- The sound of my heart as the curtains where about to open- The feeling of my ballerina shoes against the soft floor, the classical music... I loved everything. And till this day everything about ballet moves me...and makes me feel that maybe just maybe I should have continued on....

This is one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard in my life.  

It would be a dream to see it performed on stage. Just click the play buttom trust me on this one 

First image from DailybitsofBeauty
Second image from Lolita (1997)

bittersweet polaroids

So I just found out polaroids are in instinct? When did this all happened? Where was I? So here I am cleaning my room when I see my old Polaroid instant camera and I'm thinking "omg maybe I should take these to Quisqueya when I go over this christmas, it will be great to have those cute instant grainy pictures for memories." I love polaroids, they are just so nostalgic and soft, and vintage and just so darn beautiful. So of course I go online and start searching for some film when I see these crazy prices of $200 dollars for ten paper films?! I'm like, "have these stores gone insane." Of course it was just a matter of minutes when I noticed Polaroid had announced it would stop making cameras and film in 2008 or something. Anywhos, I got a little too sad :/ I just couldn't believe it. However, they supposely came back a little while ago with the new Polaroid 300 which is exactly the same as the Fujifilm instanx mini (since they had sold their rights to Fujifilm). But these cameras are not exactly like the originals, the film is quite small, think credit-card size, and not as "squared" as our beloved old ones :/. Nevertheless, it gives all of us Polaroid-lovers hope that the Polaroid is still here and may even get better -hmm maybe one day they'll make smaller/slicker cameras that won't affect the size of the original polaroids? I sure hope so.

Polaroid tranfers source SheHitPause

I have been inspired...

And I have bought my own Moleskine, and I hereby promise myself I will fill it up with all sorts of thoughts, and pictures and inspiration until the very last page. 

I have always bought so many journals since very young and I hardly ever even start them. I can actually say I have a collection of them by now, and sadly most of them are completely blank and brand-new *sighs* But I will fill this one up *crosses fingers* Come on, who can't resist it after reading this and this.

♥

sources from Hey Michelle, Gala Darling, and The Drifter and the Gypsy 

I am in love....

Yes, I am. Isn't that just the cutest dress ever?! Okay, I'll probably change my mind in a month or so when I fall in love with something else. However, my month's obsession is this little white dress.  This little dress was a bit famous this summer- You were able to shop for it at Modcloth.com for $90 or a little less at Urban Outfitters, Karmaloop, Shopbob, ShopNastygal, Revolveclothing and even Lulus

I know summer is long gone however I will be going to my tropical little island for December so thats enough of an excuse right? :)

the perfect baby pink lips

So after searching high and low, I have finally found the perfect light pink lipstick.

You see, I don't have any lipsticks (I know, gasp!). I had some lipsticks when I was in high school (it was the 90's and everyone had those dark brown lips-dont even want to remember those) but its been years since that. See, I like the "natural" look, so when I do wear makeup I just stick with a smoky eye and some lip treatment or gloss. For a while now, I wanted to rock the "nude lip" with my smokey eye, but every nude lipstick I tried just washed me out completely. I finally gave up on that and decided I just can't rock that too-pale-lips because I look dead in plain words. So I decided I should just get a light pink. But it was not that easy.  I tried so many and finally gave up on pink. Pink (specially cool pinks with blue undertones) certainly are not made for me. And then one day Urban Decay at Sephora made my day. My gorgeous mother happened to be looking at these strange looking lipsticks and voila! For some reason this color grabbed my attention:

And it was love at first lipstick. On me it is exactly as the pretty girl on the Jill Stuart Blush Blossom Ad all the way up in this post. It is a nude pink with brown undertones? I'm pretty bad at descriving. But there seems to be some light browns with pinks going on there, but the results are just beautiful!

Here is a picture from Temtalia's blog. Her lips are way more pale than mine so the lipstick looks quite different on her, a little bit more cool tone while on me the warm shows more. But whether you have more pigmented lips like mine, or paler lips like Temptalia's, this little lipstick is still a gem. Read her review here

I must say, I hate the packaging, to the point that I was not even going to buy it do to its bulky and rocker look, and the dagger thing at the bottom, seriously what is that all about?! I prefer a classier look, specially to my first lipstick. But I will look beyond this, because the color I must say is just gorgeous :)

Autumn in New York City

source for first picture click here, second click here.

I'm not a fan of cold weather, but I must say Autumn is like a piece of art. I'm not too thrilled because it leads to colder weather and that dreadful winter of ours :/ Nevertheless the colors of all the leaves makes it seem like youre walking through a painting. The following picture was taken by my cousin Chuchu at Tryont Park in New York City.

I assure you, theres not a more beautiful park than my enchanting Tryont park in New York City, not even Central park. The gardens in this park have no comparison. Wait, till you see these gardens in spring.