wedding nightmares

I still had nightmares about my wedding weeks and months after it was over. Its finally fading into the past. I have finally convinced myself that theres nothing I could do now. Its over. It wasn't a complete nightmare, actually far from it. It was a good wedding but so many little details went wrong. The problem is I had too many expectations like most brides. The one thing I do still regret till this day is that I had gone to my aunts house to get ready with all my family and bridesmaids instead of staying alone with my mother in a hotel room with my hair and makeup artists. I missed out on all the family chaos and girls getting ready and the bonds... Instead I felt kind of lonely (if that makes sense), stressed out, and completely out of it. Sometimes I even wish I could do it again. Sounds crazy since to so many people my wedding was "beautiful." But in reality, inside I was in commotion, so many little details left out, my husband didn't even get his mother and son dance and neither did I with my father. There was no toast. To the professional eye- it was completely disorganized. However that's the past and I need to leave it behind.  I have realized its okay not to be happy about the way your wedding turned out, what you have to be happy about is that you marry the man you love. And so hopefully my marriage would be the opposite of what I felt that day- so instead of chaos, pressure, stress, and "alone", it will be tranquil, loving,"together," happy, and beautiful.

Vuelve a empezar aunque sientas el cansancio aunque el triunfo te abandone aunque un error te lastime aunque un negocio se quiebre aunque una traicion te hiera aunque una ilucion se apage aunque el dolor queme tus ojos aunque ignoren tus esfuerzos aunque la ingratitud sea la paga aunque la incompresion corte tu riza aunque todo parezca nada vuelve a empezar. />

Start again, even if you feel tired even if success has failed you even if a mistake haunts you even if your business is bankrupt even if infidelity has hurt you even if your faith seems weak even if the pain burns your eyes even if your hardwork is ignored even if ingratitude is the pay even if indifference cuts your smile even if everything seems like nothing Start again. />

goodbye summer...

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I will regret it after I type this, but I am actually glad summer is over. Did I really just type that? Trust me, I do not like winter at all, I do not like layering tons of clothes, and I hate that I cannot run out in my shorts and slippers to say go to the market to get the missing sauce for my pasta. I'm the type of girl that loves taking walks in the parks, wearing light summer dresses, and getting out of the house just as I am dressed. However, this time, I am looking forward to changes and maybe a change in seasons will bring different scenes and outcomes. 

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Today we are moving to a temporary place and do you know the first thing I think when packing to a new place? Shower curtains! Such a small little detail you cannot forget, unless you want your bathroom floor to be a pool of water by the end of your shower.

10 Tips to Start Living in the Present

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"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” - Buddha

One of the best, unforeseen consequences of simplifying our lives is that it has allowed us to begin living our lives in the present. Eliminating nonessential possessions freed us from many of the emotions associated with past lives that were keeping us stuck there. And clearing our home has allowed us the freedom to shape our lives today around our most important values.

Choosing to live in the past or the future not only robs you of enjoyment today, it robs you of truly living. The only important moment is the present moment. With that goal in mind, consider this list of ten tips below to start living your life in the present:

Remove unneeded possessions. Minimalism forces you to live in the present. Removing items associated with past memories or lives frees us up to stop living in the past and start living in the present.

Smile. Each day is full of endless possibilities! Start it with a smile. You are in control of your attitude every morning, keep it optimistic and expectant.

Fully appreciate the moments of today. Soak in as much of today as you possibly can – the sights, the sounds, the smells, the emotions, the triumph, and the sorrow.

Forgive past hurts. If you are harboring resentment towards another human being because of past hurts, choose to forgive and move on. The harm was their fault. But allowing it to impact your mood today is yours.

Love your job. If you just “survive” the workweek constantly waiting for the next weekend “to get here,” you are wasting 71% of your life (5 out of 7 days). there are two solutions: 1) find a new job that you actually enjoy (it’s out there), or 2) find something that you appreciate about your current career and focus on that rather than the negatives.

Dream about the future, but work hard today. Dream big. Set goals and plans for the future. But working hard today is always the first step towards realizing your dreams tomorrow. Don’t allow dreaming about tomorrow to replace living in today.

Don’t dwell on past accomplishments. If you are still talking about what you did yesterday, you haven’t done much today.

Stop worrying. You can’t fully appreciate today if you worry too much about tomorrow. Realize that tomorrow is going to happen whether you worry about it or not. And since worry has never accomplished anything for anybody, redirect your mental energy elsewhere.

Think beyond old solutions to problems. Our world is changing so fast that most of yesterday’s solutions are no longer the right answers today. Don’t get locked into a “but that’s how we’ve always done it” mentality. Yesterday’s solutions are not today’s solutions and they are certainly not tomorrow’s solutions.

Conquer addictions. Addictions in your life hold you hostage. They keep you from living a completely free life today. Find some help. Take the steps. And remove their influence over your life.

If you can only live one moment at a time, you might as well make it the present…

-by Joshua Becker (source)

foggy days

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My blog is named "Inspiration Crush" because I wanted it for inspiration, but from the beginning I always stated it is for me to blog about anything I love, anything that inspires me, life in general, and my own life including my ups and downs.

These are my downs.

I hope you still stay.

Dear Diary,