Jul 7, 2011

Dear Happiness,

would you stay here for a while? I have missed you so. And while you're here can you bring along relaxation with you? Thank you so much ^_^
I've had a few of those weeks where everything comes to perspective. Here I am planning this wedding, making sure every detail is perfect, and then something happens that makes you realize its not that important. Yes, I am getting married for the first time and hopefully the only time, but after this day the whole world will remain the same. My life may change, so will my fiancee's, and maybe our family members who will miss saying goodnight and seeing our grumpy faces in the breakfast table in the mornings, but about everything else will remain the same. There are so many things in this world, so many kids starving, so many people with no homes, so many illnesses, so many deaths. And sometimes, just sometimes, you think, "is this all worth it?" Spending so much money on one event when there are so many that don't even have enough for a meal, their medicine? My friend answered this with: "Yes, it is. This is your day. And there will always be people suffering wether you get married or not, whether you throw a party or not. A lot of people can't afford this, but if you can then why not? You are not spending millions on it like so many other do. As long as it's a reasonable budget like you want, then what's the big deal? You deserve this." Simple words, but yet it helped me so much. But one thing is for sure, my wedding is going to be simple. Tasteful, elegant but nothing grand. We have a budget for it and we are not planning to go over it. Because at the end of the day, yes this is our day, but I never want to have the feeling that it was too much. Just a day to have fun, dance, eat and share our happiness with those we love. And then one day, when I start working again, I can give a little something at least once a month to an organization that helps others. Because that is what will make me completely happy. Its something that has always been in the back of my mind, to someday give back, and I can't wait for that day that I can put that little money in that envelope and help bring a smile to someone's face. And for now, I am happy that when that day comes I will get to do it standing next to my other half ^_^