this is my past

When I was little I thought that when I turned into an adult I would have all the answers. I would know exactly what to do, how to act, and finally be like my mother. But the more I grew, the more I kept waiting for the day I would know everything. Until I finally realized you will never know all the answers, exactly what to do, and how to act. We do as much as we can and as best as we can and thats all. Because life only gets harder every second, and when you think you have everything under control something else comes along. I have realized you never turn into an adult, the world and everything around you turns you into one.

My own photograph from my 1st birthday album.

forever young, I want to be forever young

I want to get bangs again. But I feel they are so high-maintenance. I have dyed my hair jet black again. For some strange reason my hair keeps turning lighter with the years (shouldn't it be the opposite?) Anywhos, I dyed it jet black again but now I feel I should get bangs. Maybe it's a part of me that wants to stay young. I have seen about three or four white hairs *gasp* I know! I had one since I was around ten, but its like now they have decided to multiply -_-. And I'm even deciding if I should get some anti-aging creams and serums since I see about everyone in their twenties is doing it. I don't know, isn't that too early? Oh don't mind me, good for you if you skipped reading all this nonsense. I'm having a late-twenties crisis! 

My favorite song of the week, yeah I know, no wonder huh ;)

The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw

I don't want to forget...
When I am old and wrinkly, and my boobs sag, and I can't wear skirts, I don't want to forget
I don't want to forget that I was once beautiful, and that I still am.
No, I don't want to forget that I'll still be lovely with my white hair and laugh lines.
I don't want to forget that everyone is beautiful. That everything is beautiful.
Old, young, skinny or fat, curly hair, straight hair, pouty lips, thin lips, freckles
All beautiful
Bright colorful faces, all shapes and sizes, smiles and laughter,
Beautiful, every single imperfection, every flaw: charming, pretty, cute, just lovely.
I don't want to forget
That you, reading this, YOU are beautiful
You without the makeup, and the glossy lips, and the hair straightener, and the pretty dress
the way you roll out of bed
I don't want to forget...
I don't want YOU to forget, that you my darling, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL (and so is everyone else)

This picture taken the same day as this one here (click)

quote on title by Havelock Ellis. Midnight ramblings by little me :P

a girls night out to remember...

Mayreni, me, and Dinilsa

One of the best nights of my life. Boy did we have fun that night. 

I'm really nostalgic for an all girls night out in town, and summer is almost over so my wish may not come true :( Had so many laughs that night I remember my cheeks hurting. I believe we went to around three different places, including two lounges and one bar/club all around Times Square. Surprisingly I don't remember much pain on my feet the next morning just how much fun we had :)

On the other hand, today I have a headache, my feet hurt, and I'm just not feeling good at all, and all I did yesterday was go to one single little place- the mall. I'm beyond tired- just consoling myself to some bittersweet dark chocolate and some old movies

Wish you feel better muchachita so we can relieve that night soon :/

birthday girl

from left to right: Arianny, me, and Estefania

I've had one of the most amazing birthdays ever, and I do not want to forget a single moment.  During the week, the mister took me boat-riding at Central park, so very sweet and romantic specially since he did all the rowing ;P. On thursday, he took me on the Circle Line 3-hour cruise (I know, I know, I live in New York City but believe it or not I had never done it and was dying to), it was both exciting and romantic :). On friday the 23rd (my official born day), we went to Six Flags with some friends, I was already beginning to feel the pain on my legs and feet, but it was soo much fun of course- we went on about every roller coaster ride. And lastly on saturday, a friend had an all-girls-bohemian-white-style get-together for my birthday celebration. I had not had so much fun and laughs in a while now. It was the perfect week, and couldn't have asked for more ^_^

I kiss you, you're beautiful, I want you to talk

I think I saw you in an ice-cream parlour,

drinking milk shakes cold and long

Smiling and waving and looking so fine, 

don't think you knew you were in this song

some pretty little things

from top to bottom: second picture of Anabella (when she was 2-years-old and me). Other pictures from weheartit.com